Friday, July 28, 2006
i was standing there looking.
sitting there looking
then all of a sudden it all felt weird
i knew i should not think too much
i knew i should not even look
but i just cant help it.
then all of a sudden
everything just started coming back returning back
it felt really weird
i wasnt sad, really.
but my heart just felt something wrong.
then it all came back to me again.
that this is what i left in God's hand
when i was thinking to myself
thinking about all this
God. Yes, God again appeared and spoke to me
He reminded me
He reminded me about my prayers
He left me speechless when He came into my thoughts
He left me staring into the sky,
searching high and low for Him.
i really wish to run to him,
to tell him how i feel
though he would know how i feel now,
but i just have the urge to run to Him
and pour out everything. and i mean EVERYTHING.
now as i sit here,
i am set aback to think
i am thinking about whether i am having enough faith
whether everything i prayed for would be truly answered
yes i know how of litter fiath i have...
i know the time is not right
i know it isnt time yet for everything
but sometimes i wish it would all happen today
i wish it would all happen now.
yes, i know i am impatient
but... i just cant help it
sometimes i really dont understand what i am thinking
i dont uderstand why i do the things i do
maybe thats why, God is always guiding me through this path i walk
now, i cant imagine how my life without God would be
i cant imagine how i would survive without his love
Guess without My heavenly father's love
my world would be so cold
so filled with icy touch
I was told once in my dreams by God
He whispered to me in the dark corner of my room
in the place i go for refuge
he said this and i would always remember,
"no matter what, i am here"
yes, i don't know why,
but i can never forget wat he told me
these were the precious words that he gave me when i was asleep
this was the precious words that would always linger in my heart forever
yes. and i guess, i can use these words to comfort me today
FOR NO MATTER WHAT
God will always be here for me.
